Maybe I should have asked for a psych ward trip as my birthday gift

I'm serious, I think I'd be diagnosed with at least one or two disorders First off, I often can't remember stuff I did But those things I do are pretty violent And I used to black out a lot until I was a freshman in high school Also, I have way too many weird habits (Rolling my eyes, slamming the desk multiple times while studying, banging my head hard on the desk, etc.) Personally, my safety-awareness is completely shot to hell I run a 20-minute commute one-way every day because I'm terrified something will happen to my parents if I don't get home fast enough And I've zoned out, only to snap back to find myself stabbing my thigh over and over with a mechanical pencil (drew a little blood too, and this isn't a one-time thing) Unexplained vomiting (seems like once every three days) I keep repeating certain actions (like singing the same line of a song over and over) My hands keep going weak for no reason