I'm sorry

Well... if I have to make a flimsy excuse..

When I first wrote that post, I was just thinking, 'I'll just write it down, and if the person involved says it's not them, I'll just write an apology and be done with it..'

So I included things like 'I only wrote it because I wanted a direct answer from the person concerned, and I had no intention of fighting or any ill will..'

Since the 'Sasage' (community board) getting heated up often made me feel really bad.. and because others probably felt the same, I did include apologies like 'I'm sorry for stirring up trouble' and 'I apologize'..

Then I received a comment that said something like, 'It's seriously over the line for a third party to bring up something that ended a long time ago. It's a huge problem when someone knowingly acts wrongly even when they know their past behavior was wrong. Above all, what do you mean you had no intention of fighting when you made an accusation with only suspicion and no concrete proof? You look young just by glancing at it, are you thinking that maybe this comment I wrote is also an alternate account belonging to that person?'

Even after that, I still thought it wasn't right to get worked up over someone who wasn't even the main party involved, so I decided to just wait for the actual person to show up, but..

It might sound like I'm blaming others, but.. I received the same comment again, excluding the part about my age, and eventually I wrote this:

'I didn't apologize to hear things like this. I'm not sorry! It hasn't been that long ago, and alternate accounts can happen again, so this issue isn't resolved. Also, isn't it better to speak up directly rather than lurking around and only downvoting the concerned party's posts? Furthermore, there's no concrete evidence to gain, and suspicion isn't always superior to evidence. I said I didn't want to fight, so why are you picking a fight?'

After that, I got heavily criticized regarding the suspicion part..

And because I was distracted by those other people, even when the actual person showed up, I thought, 'Should I apologize to the person concerned in the comments now..?' but I didn't actually do it..

After that, because I wanted a slightly more specific answer from the person concerned, and because I hoped the 'Sasage' would stop being heated, I eventually wrote:

'Why are you so angry? I keep hearing comments about me being young and being told not to write things like this—can't you just refute me logically and make me understand?'

After that, I heard I needed to apologize, so I wrote a full apology letter, but..

As expected, because I was young, I didn't even know how to apologize properly.. I wrote it hastily while worrying about what my teachers at school would think, so what came out was a letter that was clearly 70% excuse and 30% apology, looking like I just wrote it to avoid criticism..

After that, since the apology letter mentioned 'You need to apologize directly to the person concerned,' I gave a first apology to the person involved.. (Of course, I think that apology also contained excuses based on my memory..)

Then, when people said I needed to apologize again, I apologized to the person concerned again, this time without any excuses, properly..

After that... well... everyone knows what happened—the 'Sasage' got heated up again..

Then it calmed down a bit..

I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for everything..

I clouded the atmosphere.. I unnecessarily called them out.. I never expressed my remorse.. I just kept making excuses.. I only thought about myself.. I am truly sorry.. I will atone..

I don't know what to do now..

Please tell me how to write a proper apology again.. Honestly, I don't think this post looks like an apology at all.