Losing lane two games in a row

my mental is shot first game, whatever, the whole team was inting anyway and I could see myself making too many dumb mistakes early

second game though, my team was all winning but I wasn't just losing lane, I got completely gapped and my mental broke so bad my hands started shaking

I stuck it out, got carried in the end and we won, but honestly if it just ends with my ego taking a hit that's lucky... I inted so bad I was basically griefing my team and was shaking the whole game