a fucking shocking nursing home story

came home from academy around 7~7:20 my family was eating with dark expressions and my mom was drinking bokbunja

my mom talked about the nursing home where grandpa is. i thought a nursing home would be nice, but fuck they tied his arms and legs and put a diaper on him. that's what they did. and the conversation was even worse - when my mom visited, grandpa asked if he could go to the bathroom, they said no, so he just put his diaper back on. there's fucking nothing i can do about this. it really hurts like my heart is tearing apart but i can't do anything

then my mom cried for a while and said she got married at 24 and didn't know anything our grandpa always took care of her like his own daughter, asking if she slept well, if she was hungry if she had enough rice, if she had food, if she was eating well

but fuck, what i can do is just have him lie in a place as hard as prison, with a mind that's not even intact, not able to go to the bathroom, tied up every day, not moving, just lying there. of course nothing changes just because i barely write this. what i want to say is just call your grandpa or grandma when you can, or send a message, even just one sentence. thanks for reading this long post.