Choosing a Side: My Story

i didn't have a political side until the covid thing ended

so when my family talked politics, i'd just eat and leave

but one day, a friend asked me: between a criminal who's smart and a dumb person who's kind, who'd you rather have as president?

i chose the dumb but kind person

because, i'm really sensitive about crime something happened but it's family stuff so skip it

since i believe there's nothing more dangerous than a smart criminal it was so obvious to me that a kind but dumb person is more fit to be president, so i picked that

first off, i can't tell left from right i didn't know politics at all, so i didn't know what leftists do, who they are, what they did good or bad didn't know what rightists do, who they are, what they did good or bad didn't know what color left is or what color right is even after picking a side, i spent months asking and searching to learn

like i said, i didn't even know what colors or which side was which

but that friend said then you're right-wing. you're a bastard who ruined the country.

so, not knowing colors, not even knowing which side left is on from that moment i decided i'd be right-wing just out of pure spite

anyway, after i emphasized multiple times that i don't know anything he latched onto that one choice and kept going on about politics preaching at me for like 30 minutes it was fucking awful

i absolutely fucking hate it when people define me on their own terms who the fuck are you to define me? because of what i showed you? fuck off. because of what i just said? fuck off for real.

it's not that i just dislike it i'm the type of person who would waste my life just to see that piece of shit squirm over one comment like that

you think i look like life is a pain? it's not that it looks that way. it really is that way. even if the country goes to shit, i can't forgive the one who defined me arbitrarily hell, even if the right-wing completely ruins this country those extreme leftist assholes are the ones i'm gonna give a big fuck you to. that's all i could think.

of course, it was a thought born from a moment of rage and then i thought, no, that's not my intention. a criminal becoming king doesn't make sense that's why i chose the other and i tried to let it go nicely but the fucker grabbed me and went "ahh~ so you're gonna ruin the country" and shit

that made me fucking livid

i normally call myself a dumbass and go around, and i'm used to being called a dumbass by people i live my life aimlessly with the goal of hearing someone tell me to go die

but just remembering that day makes my blood boil

who the fuck is he to define me? if i had a faction that day, i wouldn't have felt as wronged fuck, i don't know shit about that stuff but he treats me like a dumbass based on what little he knows?

what a fucking asshole

but still, he's a friend... so... okay... i tried to calmly say, no, that's not it. listen. just hear me out. i don't know about that...

but he kept cutting me off yeah, so you're just gonna do this and that

you know, when i play on op.gg, i sometimes get banned for getting angry times like that, i used to get banned a lot and that version of me held back three times.

i was someone who got every ban and swore like crazy, so if i held back three times, that's a lot, right? don't i deserve to get angry just once?

so i held back two more times, and when he kept going, i finally got pissed and lashed out in a really cold voice.

then i apologized, said sorry... but

still, it pisses me off, you know? what the hell do the extreme left teach people that they don't even give a person who knows nothing about politics the time to get a word in and just force their own ideology down your throat making you act like a fucking clown? it was so fucking shitty.

so for the first time, i searched up politics.

and seriously, the more i searched, the more i found the left side was fucking awful, so i became right-wing.